“Leave your issues in your tissues”

Well, where to start. This week (week 2) has been hard, very hard for me. I started the week on a high having met my friend Gemma on Sunday who I am now inseparable from, and we had a lovely evening Sunday with a whole group. But then Tuesday came and I felt terrible but pushed on. The Wednesday came and I felt Really sick and I actually was sick after morning class having cried on the nurse before class. I couldn’t eat all day Wednesday and also cried during the morning lecture- I don’t know why! But Manali who is in charge of TT took me aside and was lovely “leave your issues in your tissues” she said! Be strong! Well I didn’t realise I had any issues but anyone that knows me well knows I love a cry and so I just let the tears come for the rest of the day, more thurs and more Friday too! I started feeling better on Thursday and was able to eat.
We had an amazing lecture with Bikrams right hand man Jim on Thursday where I made 10 pages of notes- I loved it. We learnt about how Bikram created the beginners serious of 26 postures and 2 breathing exercises and how it is totally based on logic; nothing can be removed and nothing need be added as every posture we do prepares us for what is coming next . We also learnt that Bikram hasn’t changed the yoga to fit into body types: with Bikram yoga we are fitting the people into the balance of yoga, which is how you balance people between strength and flexibility. Bikram Yoga has not compromised the basis of yoga which is – holding still, breathing normal, with savasana in between. Anyway, I was LOVING it!! And thought “right that’s it I’ve had enough of feeling weak I feel strong. I’m gonna go in the middle of the room and have the best class ever tonight” hmmmmmm
So that didn’t happen. What happened instead was that I died. I felt horrendous- but I stayed in the room, possibly stupidly as by the end of class I couldn’t see, walk or speak and everything was in slow motion – it took half an hour of me laying on the carpet outside the hot room before I could make it upstairs.
A similar thing happened on Friday night class – except this time (even though my lovely friend Darielle was in the room, a visiting BYC teacher on her way home to the Uk) I had to leave the room. I had to. And I never ever ever leave. Ever. Or sit down. I never do. But things are different here- I really feel like this week a layer of the Katie onion has been peeled back and I’m going through this tough time to come out of it stronger. Because I know I will. I’m learning that what we are told is true- you can’t have any expectations. So just don’t. So that’s what I’m going to try and do next week- expect nothing and just be in the momentπŸ’ͺ
But week 2 hasn’t all been tears and pukingπŸ’© there have been some amazing things and here and just 10:
1- meeting my friends Gemma, Shannon and Heather
2- eating a double cheeseburger and cheese fries at in and out burger
3- Darielle coming to visit!
4- la la land yoga wear – I spent waaaayyy too much!
5- FaceTime! With Ross,k&g and with mum and Sarah today ❀️
6- “your mind is your best friend and your biggest enemy” learning so much from Bikram!
7- what actually IS the mind body connection? The Spine because it is the pathway the brain uses to communicate with all 27,000 billion cells in the body
8- a parcel from mum arriving with a baby unicorn in I have named Wendy 🐴
9- learning the dialogue – I love it!
10- the LA sunshine β˜€οΈβ˜€οΈβ˜€οΈβ˜€οΈ
Who KNOWS what week 3 will bring?!?
I’ll leave you with one final thing to ponder- did you know it takes 46 muscles to grimace and only 3 to SMILE😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊


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